I started to sorta finger myself again

I started to sorta finger myself again 

I started to sorta finger myself again

In the bathtub alone 

Thinkin of you 

Imaginin there were your fingers 

Gently rubbin my clit slowly goin 

Up and down mmmm....

Then I stopped 

It was still awkward....

I sigh, shakin my head 

I told myself I still don't think 

I'm not doin it right 

But I was so hot at the moment 

You weren't in the bathroom 

Not touchin me 

Not feelin me up 

So I just let it go...

I stopped fingerin myself 

Cos there's no point in these 

Situations I'm alone my skin

Is achin for softer kisses, a tender 

Massage...my nipples are hard enough 

I wish you were there starin at my 

Body and wanted to touch me....

I felt kinda alone 

I sorta finger myself

But then it was like, "okay, I can't do this"

I've tried....masturbation wasn't really my 

Thing.... I stopped 

Cos the awkwardness lingered and plus

My frustration has built up a thousand 

Walls there's nobody to break them down 

I gave up playin myself for now 

Even though 

I'm a virgin 

I still have the urgency for a man who is 

Willin to caress my flesh...

I miss a man's touch 

I miss a man's tongue

I miss playin, suckin a dick....

I miss all of that

At this second,

I look at my hairy pussy 

And breathe...I so desperately want this 

It doesn't make sense 

I want you and you're not around 

It makes me sad....sounds crazy 

But You are my total desire...

My delicious cravin....

Oh well, I just can't always get what I want....

I did sorta finger myself

But it's better for you to rest your palm

Upon my pussy...hope you understand 

My pain...am I little crazy mess up kind 

Of woman who is in her own horniness?

And thinks masturbation is awkward 

I know I'm not alone somebody is in the shoes too...

Cos I sorta finger myself 

And it wasn't workin 

I didn't cum....

I don't even try 

Anxiety got in the way 

So I was like it's whatever 

I'm gonna have to keep waitin for you 

To sex me...

I'm gonna have to keep inkin my sexual escapades 

Til there are all gone...

Writin erotic is My copin....

Yet, I'll always think of you....

I started to finger myself again 

And nothin happened...

Just a sigh....💔

© Kai C. 4/26/15